<font color="#000088">Hi all and hope you're all doing OK ...

I'm posting this bcuz of someone's advice on here, given the circumstances. I'm not as irritated as I was, however the 'root' of this issue is yet to be determined.

When I went to my T Tuesday, I was describing what I was doing that day (which was wanting to get a house again, looking at them on the net, and was overall happy and kinda 'up there'), and then told her I was driving and didn't really have a care in the world on the trip to her Office, she started to laugh... I got completely offended when she laughed at me for talking to myself while driving bcuz I told her I do that often and it helps me concentrate on driving. I asked her WHY would you laugh at me and she responded that "Im not laughing at you, and I apologize for that, but it is a sigh type laugh bcuz I can tell the meds are not working bcuz you're acting manic.....

[BTW: Meds are Seroquel 100MG at nite and 500MG Depakote ER at nite, Xanax 1MG PRN Max 5/Day]

Now I did/do NOT feel a bit manic - hyper maybe - but not manic.... We actually got into a fight over it - which, of course, did NOT help my case so to speak, and she called in someone else to 'watch' bcuz she felt intimidated by me..

Long story short, she asked if I would voluntarily surrender my license or by law, she would have to turn me in to the State bcuz I am not safe on the road - especially in a manic state and I'm "unwilling to accept such"...... But again, I did and do NOT feel like I am in an episode - I feel very 'neutral' if that makes a lick of sense; sure I have lack of sleep and I don't want to sleep and I was/am talking fast, but it was bcuz I was happy....

So my friends, what's your take w/this info? If you need more, I can get into it deeper... Is it possible that the meds are starting to work, i.e. I have happiness, and be in a manic state at the same time? I mean hell if it is true, then I've gone from manic, to stable (for 2 days), to in bed for 4 days, and now right into manic over a 2 week period.... I value your thoughts/opininos, so I figured I ask ya and see what you think... Usually I can notice it and feel episodic behaviours - i just did not feel it this time....

And by the way - feel free to speak open and honest... If I truly am more/less 'oblivious to the fact' right now, I need to know this. I know ya'll have always spoke your minds and I appreciate that.

Take it easy and thank you... ~N</font>