@downfall: I understand where you're coming from. I hate being lonely so much...I don't really feel a reprieve coming here but, to me, it's better than nothing. At least I'm not talking to myself.

@susan: What you said really helps, thanks. I have learned most of this in therapy but have forgotten it. I don't feel like I was able to work on it too well for some reason but it all sounds familiar. Thank you.