Like Namaste has said, be proud of yourself for admitting you have a problem. I can now admit that I do, but I didn't used to. It was like if I admitted that I was sick, that I truly was sick. It was such a final thing. Please realize that you've made the first step in recovery. Admitting you have a problem is one of the hardest things to do. I have been dealing with anorexia/bulimia for the past 11 years. Please don't let yours carry on as long as I have mine. Get the help you need now, even if it is hard for you. I am always here if you want to talk. I'm just a pm or im away. Be good to yourself poppet.