I have nothing going for me any more I feel I now have lost everything that I used to fight for. I have No reason for existing. No one wants me here. Family have abandoned me unless I can DO something FOR them I am totally out of their minds. I am not a bad person. I am a true and loyal friend, but apparently not worth knowing in this very clicky little backwater town. So really there is nothing for me here any more, nothing it seems for me to fight for any where any more.
I cannot find a reason to struggle like this.