I have a hard time communicating my feelings or thoughts. I get really nervous sometimes and just can't think. By nervous I mean frozen in my brain. Especailly when things go wrong.

Anyway, this is hard for my relationships. For example, let's say I spend the whole day cooking a turkey, which I really don't know how to do but tried. Then it was mostly done but partly pink. I couldn't respond to questions about what to do. I can't even remember the questions. I just say "I don't know, I don't know." And "I'm sorry," because I don't know what to say.

Anyway to get the response of, "I can't even have a conversation with you. All you know how to talk about are posts you read on the internet." What does that mean? I have lots of things to talk about like art and books I read and the news or work or trying to write my book... or the baby. But mostly no one wants to talk about those things with me. In fact I feel no one really wants to talk to me about things at all.

But what does that mean? "I can't have a conversation with you," ??? Does that mean I'm just bad at communicating or that person doesn't want me around any more?