I admit there are some emotional attachments, but in the end it all comes down to just trying to be thinner...and if that means just licking the icing off donuts and chewing cookies and spitting them out, then that is what i do. I want this cycle to end, but cant seem to find a way to do it. I stop binging and start abusing laxatives. I am currently doing 120 minutes of cardio a day...it never ends! I see a counseler, but it is hard because everything always get thrown back on me...and i dont have the answers....any ideas