Crown, First Welcome to PC! This site has helped me tremendously, no one judges you, most people are kind & gentle.

Now, you are going thru a lot! I am not in your shoe's & can really only offer you the support that you are NOT alone.

Most of us on here are not professionals & I am not very good with words. The questions I would ask are, do you have a T (therapist) or a pdoc (psychiatrist)? If so, on meds & maybe discuss a med tweak.

Being out of the work force can have it's advantages, but one disadvantage is the loss of INS benefits. There are other resources thru county assistance, the state, Dept of Human Services, get a case worker to help you navigate the system. Thru Voc Rehab you can ever get a job coach. All this is up to you as you can handle it.

So, if I haven't overwhelmed you... Please keep posting as you feel comfortable, there are many forums to read & relate to.

Sending you many good thoughts.