Hello, well, I think I have some things for you to help. I actually feel that my husband is deeply embarrassed by me and completely ashamed to have me as his wife. This is very strong in me and I am very heartbroken. But I don't feel I can talk to him because he blows off my feelings as being "crazy, jealous, etc." But I can tell you exactly why I feel the way I do. I will make a list so it doesn't get long.

1) He doesn't want me to be part of his social circle. He doesn't introduce me to friends, doesn't like when I'm around his friends, and often will snap at me to "be quiet" if I say certain things or use certain emotes (so that they can't hear.)

2) Along that same thread if he's talking (his friends are online) through a mic he will turn the mic off if I enter the room so no one will hear me talking. Also he will close his door to shut me out so no one can hear the embarrassing noises of his family.

3) He doesn't want me posting any pictures of myself where his friends might see them. He says it is to protect himself because his "haters" will use my picture to make fun of him. He insists this is not because I'm "ugly" (although I feel tremendously ugly everyday and this makes it worse,) but because people might Photoshop me somehow. I just feel it is an excuse because he's embarrassed that I'm not as pretty as the females he is friends with.

4) He no longer holds my hand in public. I had a lot of touch issues as a kid. Such as, I wasn't hugged much. And my ex, well, I didn't want to hug him. So when I met my husband he said he would always hug me and hold my hand so people would know we're together. That's all gone now. Instead he just walks as fast and far ahead as possible and gets mad if I can't keep up.

5) He never tells me I look nice. Never. But he won't hesitate to point out when I look terrible. The only time he compliments me is during sex.... telling me I'm sexy, well, I don't feel that way.

6) He never talks of my accomplishments. He never says "He, she did this and it was great." Or "Hey, she really helped me out a lot with this." Often he takes things that I have done and then when he talks about them he says "I did this." I never get any credit for what I do to the people he knows.

7) He doesn't care about what I'm doing. I'm working on my novel again and he doesn't say anything encouraging. He thinks me trying to write is not a smart idea and would never say he is proud of me for at least trying instead of just giving up.

8) When I talk to him he often acts annoyed. He doesn't act happy when I come home from work, just like the annoying person is back and now he has to deal with me, because I will want to talk to him and take focus away from his friends.

So you know, he hugs and kisses and cuddles with me where no one can see. He tells me he loves me everyday. And he says thank you to my face if I get him something or do something. But then he never passes that along to other people that I do all this for him. Or cuddle or hug or kiss me where people see he loves me. I feel like the invisible woman.

And that is why I feel he is embarrassed and ashamed of me.