I'm sorry how money seems to run our lives... necessary evil. I hope you are able to separate yourself some from your circumstances.. try to self advocate... I hope your check comes soon... and if you lose power or internet, that you won't sit but go to library or someplace and do something. THis too shall pass... our worrying about things gets us nowhere but feeling worse... it's a tough thing to do to ourselves. (((((safe hugs)))) Keep us at PC updated...something good will come