((((Open eyes)))) you will NEVER be in the sane position you were when you were young. You were helpless and i child, am i right? You are an adult now. I know you are struggling, but you NEVER, EVER have to go back to being that powerless. No one not your sister or neighbor can take away your adulthood. It only feels that way.
I'm so sorry that you went through so much physical and emotional pain and no one took you seriously. My own sister has said some hurtful things in past similar to what your sister told you. Mine doesnt remember saying them. My sister has some memory
problems , so do i. My sister also yelled at me during asthma attacks. She thought it was me being dramatic or something. I talked to
a T about it once. T said that people who love us sometimes
Tell us super hurtfull things because they want to spare themselves pain of watching us in pain. My sister abd i are good now. Would your sister and husband go to therapy with you. I know money is issue. There could be low cost options for therapy through church or county. If you dont want sister to go, probably your husband could join you for some of sessions. i hate for you to feel so alone and misunderstood.

(((Open eyes))) i just like you a lot. I like your love of animals, spirituality, the words you post, i'm gunning for you