Could your struggles be due to the fact that your meds are NOT working for you?
Oftentimes this can be the the case and meds need to be tweaked or changed entirely.
We can also tend to focus on our struggles/problems so much that we fail to see that this focus is exactly the reason that we continue to struggle and fight so hard. We ARE going to have struggles and problems, but we must develop a HOPE that as we fight our depression that we will also find ways of coping/managing these battles.

Please explain more of what is going on in your life that cause these struggles, and maybe, just maybe we can find a more definitive answer that helps you to have some hope again.

I'm here, and I care.