This has been bothering me so badly lately. See I am nothing like society aka Hollywood, I don't look fake, I don't have kids and I am not married so I feel that I am nothing in this world. On top of it that miserable crush on that guy will not go away (thanks to my OCD). He has rejected me so many times cause I am not a bar girl, I don't party and I am wholesome/sweet. Also I feel that when people are lonely they talk to me cause I am that boring I guess for the reasons that I listed above. I just don't get why I am here, I feel that I am taking up space on this planet for people who are more important than I. What is the use of living and that dumb crush (that I mentioned before) is not helping my depression any. Yes I have a new very part time temp job but still I hurt deeply.
Thanks for reading this. I had to get this out.