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Originally Posted by clouds_and_sun
This has been bothering me so badly lately. See I am nothing like society aka Hollywood, I don't look fake, I don't have kids and I am not married so I feel that I am nothing in this world. On top of it that miserable crush on that guy will not go away (thanks to my OCD). He has rejected me so many times cause I am not a bar girl, I don't party and I am wholesome/sweet. Also I feel that when people are lonely they talk to me cause I am that boring I guess for the reasons that I listed above. I just don't get why I am here, I feel that I am taking up space on this planet for people who are more important than I. What is the use of living and that dumb crush (that I mentioned before) is not helping my depression any. Yes I have a new very part time temp job but still I hurt deeply. 
Thanks for reading this. I had to get this out. |
I don't know if this will help or not, but from a guys point of view, a wholesome and sweet girl is infinitely better than some "bar girl". Yea I know that it seems most guys want a "bar girl" or some one night stand and a lot of them do but when it comes down to it any respectable guy that is worth your time will want you and only you being the wholesome and sweet girl that you are.
I don't think you are "taking up space" on this planet of people... if anything there are plenty of other people out there that, in my opinion, ARE taking up space
but it's definately not people like you.
I really hope you get to feeling better soon... I know how depression can bring you down and make you feel worthless and that life isn't worth living... but it's all in your mind and you'll feel better soon enough. Take care
