Quit sucessful 2 year job after developing fear of rejection within final 3 months of employment.

Completly isolated from former friends and relatives- stay in apartment 24/7 and watch t.v. or utube all waking hours.

Need job but afraid to look or answer Career Builder emails that offer jobs.

Feel I have nothing to contribute to anyone. Feel hopeless, helpless, zero motivation

Was for 40 year goal oriented, exceeding agressive, very sucessful in business.

Have tried former tools which motivated me, but now useless. Can't even immagin a mental picture of a better life.

Take medication, if not-you know what would happen.

Had therapy over 40 year period-worthless. Had many issues, still have them but my drive to be sucessful in business could not be stopped by other issues. Think sucess drive was anger based.

Therapy non affective because of BPD-too difficult and too much work for most therapists. Gee, I wish they would have told me after a couple of sessions instead of taking thousands of my dollars and never making even a 1% difference.

Probably also have some narciccistic characteristics.

Am I just being childish by acting helpless, hopeless-just have no more self-confidence.

Any insights, sugestions, incouragements welcomed.