What I see from this post is a very insightful person so only you can answer the question as to whether you are "just being childish by acting helpless, hopeless" and why you would even pose that question to yourself.

It sounds like you have hit a big bump in the road and you are frustrated with your own behaviors and you want things to be different but you dont know where to start. What are some things that have worked in the past?

I can identify with hopelessness and isolation and lack of motivation. My pdoc has me doing little things like taking miniwalks just to get out. And I am talking miniwalks. Im not going far. Last about two minutes. Going to the grocer, if only for one thing. Having a meal with a coworker or my son to socialize. Very small things. I found a paint class I go to once or twice a month. I dont socialize there, keep to myself, but it gets me out and I do something I am proud of. Its hard to do these things, I just have to jump in and do it and I really do feel better having done them.

Good luck to you.