I'm hoping that's altered because I swear I wrote sexual preference?!
Like getting slapped in the face by my reflection... I see where you're getting at but that still freaks me out. Plus the fact that it freaks me out seems like a huge indicator that I am in denial. I mean, it wouldn't freak me out if I knew I was heterosexual, would it? I know of a something someone gave me on a different website before, too, and since I still remember it it must've helped a lot at the time. I don't know if I can really believe it or not but it was something like:
You: The sky is blue.
OCD: Nope, the sky is red.
You: Huh? Nah, it's clearly blue.
OCD: You must be colour blind because it's red.
You: Hm. Maybe it really was red this whole time...

But I'm still not sure I can keep that in mind at all because what if it's not my situation? What if I am gay and just trying to put off the truth for as long as possible and covering it up with this OCD thing?