It's not for attention...but being in high school many of my peers think they're so smart when they claim that's why we do it. I hate that.

Like many, I did (do?) it as a release. Often when someone talks about me to my face or behind my back, whatever the reason, it's the first thing that enters my mind. I guess I want to feel in control of the pain - I want to hurt myself instead of allowing them to hurt me.