Having a really hard night again. The anxiety always seems to get worse at night.

I have an appointment with my t tomorrow. It scares me. I have contacted her all but one day this week, so she knows how truly bad it's been. That means that I am going to have to go in and talk about it. I have to hold it together. I am afraid if I let go, everything is going to come pouring out and I won't be able to pick myself up and keep going after my appointment.