<font color="blue"> Anyway I was looking up some Internet sites for self-confidence, and pretty much all of them containing of repeating phrases such as “I am a special and unique person” or similar. I tired whenever I go into the “I hate myself” thinking. All it did was cover up the hate myself thinking, which in itself is beneficial but in the long run I would actually want to have some fact base ideas to show I’m a err ‘Special and unique person’, or decently smart is good enough for me.

Since I said before I read a lot of books I wanted to see if I could find the grade level on one of the books I was reading. But then I couldn’t find it, and the Internet didn’t work, so I just got mad at myself for being too stupid to find the right website or to get the Internet to work.

Also if I do have brief moments of self-confidence, afterwards I feel bad for thinking good of myself, like I had a big ego, and thus makes me go back to the hate myself part. It’s like I feel I should deserve to feel bad about myself.

So in question, instead of temporary blocking out the I hate me’s what else can I do to actually have some fact about me being decently intelligence, because I already have the fact’s that I’m as dumb as a door. And also, how can I feel that self-confidence doesn’t equal big ego? Because it doesn’t seem I think that about anyone else, It’s like others are allowed to feel pride, but I’m just too stupid. Any advice please? Thank you.

P.S. Should I be putting my posts here or in the steps to self-confidence? Because I’m depressing at my lack of self-confidence.
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