Not proud of this. I just got totally overwhelmed with fear, and instead of picking up the phone and talking about it, I went back to my old coping mechanism and drank pretty much steadily through Wed. afternoon. Stopped briefly Wed. and Thurs., Then started drinking again Fri. night, and Sat. Didn't drink Sun. And I think I'm over it. I have talked to my sponsor and a few other people in AA and they've all been supportive. Going to my group at Branson today and a meeting tonight.

I'm just lucky I didn't die or have something bad happen. Didn't hurt me (beyond what I put myself through emotionally and physically) and didn't hurt anybody else.

So now it's starting over again.

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