The same thing happens to me.Did you feel like there was a ton of focus on you,and you were failing with the turkeys progress,and sort of embarrassed,and panicky?If I interpreted right,I just wanted to say I totally relate.As far as the internet thing,maybe you feel more confident when you are anonymous,so,it's easier for you to be your self there,compelling you to visit sites frequently just for interaction.But,I doubt they meant to project that they don't want you around.Likely they stated that because they had been ruminating about it and wondering why you weren't having more personal interaction w/ them?Ask what they would like to do different.If you get a convo going acknowledge their feelings...ie,You; "You sound frustrated that I spend time on the internet,what would you like to see change ?".....and ,"Is there anything you want to talk about?" or....ask questions about their life,an open question,and really listen,giving them the floor,and saying things that let them know they are being heard.Like "Sounds like you feel...." things that lead them to expand on it.
Seems to me that you really want to please people,are very sensitive,shy,and not too secure about your self esteem.People can be insensitive with the quality,because they are different.I'm sorry about that.It was not an experience that you were practiced at (making the turkey),And saying that along with "what do you think I ought to do",or,"I'm not sure,let me go check the directions I have",may have worked ok.But basically you are just wanting to please people,and a bit insecure,and under pressure to do it right.You seem to have a really good heart.Keep your chin up.Don't be so down on your self.