I understand completely and have felt that way ever since I had to quit working 9 years ago. Lunch at work was my entire social life and that was okay then. Until just recently, after starting Abilify, I could not go out of the house to a place where there were lots of people I didn't know, so how could I make friends! Things have changed for the better for me now, but I totally understand. If someone from our church used to come to the house (I had not gone for 15 years), I would hide in the computer room in order to avoid them, even though I long for real friends. Life does not seem fair, but I did learn to try to have thoughts of things will not be as bad tomorrow as they are today.