i dunno i was really tired and i just couldnt get to sleep and when i was thinking it was like i couldnt stop thinkin negative **** then i'd counteract it real quick for like a couple hours i did this **** arguin with myself over nothin in particular jus stupid **** bein alone hearin noises thinkin my neighbors hearin me. :/kinda close spots round here.. neways i dunno if i bein paranoid i wish there was a way to jus kno cuz if i hear thems mayb it would make things make sense like how come i have such a bad memory and hard time concentrating when i'm thinkin i cant listen to people i cant hear them:/ its bad compartmentalization really or somethin i think