It looks as though most ppl just communicate this way. So here I go....I am feeling so up and down I had my meds changed and this is beginning to feel so draining. I start getting angry at my pdoc but when I see her she explains things so then I calm down. But when the meds don't work or create horrible side effects I get angry again until I see her. I was on 2mg Risperdal 1000 Depakote, 200 seroquel, a nighmare med, 10 mg citalopram, and thats all I think.
Now I am on 40 mg Latuda which made me feel horribly restless so she gave me Benedryl for that. 500 mg Depakote, coming off risperdal bc I hated the weight gain on it. Night mare med still and I think thats it.

This whole thing has me wore out. Friday, I think bc I am coming off the risperdal I felt this horrible fear, inferior just awful. How do I get through this I am so tired of not being me. I want to be put on 40 mg citalopram a mood stabilizer and seroqueil. Instead she keeps saying no that with the antidepressant she is too afraid I will go manic or maybe back into a psychosis. I am just so frustrated sorry this is all over the place but I don't communicate well this way.

How do you get through feeling like a lab rat?