I am not too sure what to say to all the turmoil you are feeling and going through. Pregnancy is such an exciting and wonderful time to be marred by the eventual weight gain. Especially for those suffering from ED's.

All I can suggest is that you talk and talk and talk - as much as you want about what you are feeling and going through - get it out there - here - a journal - your man - a therapist - a tree - anything - just let it all out. Obviously on a more practical level, and I know it is easier said than done, stick to healthy eating and mild exercise as best you can.

My thoughts are with you and the baby!