I am alone and I am sad. I haven't left my house in days. I was doing good for a stretch. I lost it. I lost my hold on being okay. I came to the computer and now I am even worse. I will get off, until I can be in a better state of mind. I don't really have anyone to trust. My S.O. calls and I just say that I am fine. He will berate me if I tell him I am depressed again.