C88, are you working with a therapist? If you have PTSD due to this trama, you really can't fix this on your own, you would truely benefit from getting therpy and being open and honest like you are here. You can learn how to cope better. Often PTSD doesn't appear right after a trama, can actually come out as much as a year later. You need to keep yourself in check with therapy.

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