I used to cut so that I could feel something. My life as a child was unreal I am now a 64 year old child and find a lot of healing by writing. PLEASE, don't cut. I went too far once and was surprised to find that I was still here. Actually, I've only been here for about two years. I have a lot invested in me and I'm never going to quit.. Being stubborn has finally paid off. We are all in here for each other. At any time of night, There is usually someone to talk to. You would not be here because I think you believe that things can get better. Be safe and bless you for your courage. If you are afraid of being alone in your room, go someplace else even if it's just to breathe different air. Bless this room and all that are here. goodnight. I'm so tired I'm seeing double.