My Support Forums - View Single Post - It is not me what is the problem... it is the world and having to live in it

Sanada · Nov 29, 2011, 03:04 AM

On this subject I do see myself as an island (an individual). The only place I can experience the world is from behind my eyes and in my body. I do believe human interaction is of the utter most importance for generating progression for myself in life if I am to live my life to the fullest.

A way of seeing myself (I told my T), as a simple 'model', I'll use is - I / human beings, are like islands in a tank all together. We are like 'thermometers' floating in a tank together but separate to each other. The vast majority of human beings will stay with what is commonly called 'the normal (temp). Staying together in the 'so - called' norm is what it 'seems' humans do. Compared to their own culture.

Also there are the ones who like to test the temp 'by choice', so will drift off from the 'norm', and go in to either hotter or colder water. I guess I would call these 'adventures' or 'explorers'.
Its cool to be an explorer of the human condition. I consider myself in this class, I have explored and reached out to test the temp (i.e the way, of the other ways of life, be it spirituality, culture, politics, philosophy and even - drugs). What I did was 'very dangerous' though (again this is a model I present to my T sometimes). When exploring the outside the 'normal temp' of the human average (esp with drugs), the 'Thermometer' can be broken (i.e - very hot or very cold); and like all thermometer's once broken (or changed) cannot be undone. 'I' was lucky to survive.

The vast majority of people I have known, or have met irl, are people who will stay with the 'herd' or 'group' for the norm. Not explorers types, I cannot have intellectual convo's with them, simply because the have not been interested in things like - 'Philosophy' or 'Psychology'.

Also there are natural drifters from the norm (I love saying that - norm, its funny cause it is not 'real' really), the ones who are 'naturally' different to others around them. In whatever way possible, all of us are relevant and valid and equal to the others around us, other 'Thermometers'.

To sum up, picture a pool with a gradient of an infinity of temp's, most human beings hang around the middle of the pool, where its a constant temp. Others on either end will drift far into the hotter side of the pool and others into the cooler side of the pool.
We all need to know though what's going on 'all around the pool', and I guess that's where human interaction comes in. Communication with all other sides of say - society, religion, culture, ideas, politics, etc etc.

Philosophy is deff not a trigger for me. I love it (cause I like to build models to map myself and to understand others in the world).