I have had many thoughts to day-- and right now I just had one that I just need to express due to I do not get humans fully (I am human I know, I do not get me fully so I fit in the category )

Any ways - Early I was talking to a Co worker about our supervisor- and that how if she is upset with us (an individual or group) she will "throw us under the bus" and say all the little things we have every done wrong and so one and complain about them and for days or weeks (or even months) be upset with us and add more and more to the fire for her to use- nit pick and stuff

This stuff triggers me- it is what my mother use to do so yeah some times i feel like punching my supervisor in the face but I keep calm....
Then more triggers me when my supervisor does not praise me but another that does less (if she praised someone that did more i would understand but someone that did less!!) or fake promises like a raise..... Any ways back on the subject of throwing others under a bus

But what I don't get is that my coworker started to complain how "she throws us under the bus"
and then he brought up an Ex-Employee---- After thinking back on some things I was like wait a tick- that ex-employee that we sobbed about has thrown me under the bus!!

Then I was like I am sure this co-worker i was talking to has done similar actions--Actually I can think of one right now that did not involve me but another co-worker to which this coworker I was talking to threw him under the bus with a lie ----- then I started to think about me--- have I thrown some one under the bus-- I know in the past with a few -- it may have seem like it-- I have a nack with if a person is not telling the truth and making me look bad or where I get in trouble- yeah I will call you out on it and use facts to save my butt (sorry it is something I learned as a child and in reality if I am being honest with facts not fabrications- it is ok)-- but Is that throwing some one under the bus? I am sure some see it as that way--- this ex-coworker that we spoke of got really upset when I pointed out some thing that she lied about which put me in jeopardy of being in trouble....

That stuff too is triggering to me- it reminds me of my siblings and I sadly.

I don't play well with others some times... I mostly try to be a lone and sit quietly- it is not till some one lights my fuse with fabrications, accusations or lies, that I get out right loud and explode...

sigh0- Just thoughts right now-

Are all places of work like this-- I have to keep asking that- I know that i have some things "wrong with me" as far as dx's goes but these "normal" people see SOME Of the things that I see----- or I think they are "normal" LOL