I'm not a diagnosed depressive. I have other issues. But now and then (and particularly now) I just get intensely down in a way that I don't know but assume is depression. It's as if some twenty-foot tall giant with huge boots is just crushing me with his feet. And, yes, it does make you want to do anything at all to get out of the situation. My T says I have to tough it out. Look the misery straight in the eye and figure out why it's happening. And she's probably right. But if I had some alcohol right now I'd drink it, but I don't (no money).

This happens maybe twice or three times a year when the external aspects of our economic situation get particularly gruesome and I have to deal with people I'd prefer never to have met. I just want to do anything at all to get away from this down. Which of course is why I'm writing this. Writing a relevant post in PC does indeed help. Just the writing it down.

For all I know this may be the wrong place for me to post. Perhaps it's just for people with permanent (semi-permanent?) depression. At least with diagnoses. What say you all? Take care.