I am tending to one of my ponies that is sick. I have already had the vet out twice, I can't even affort that. I had to have her come out at 3:30 this morning. I have pretty much been up all night.

This is one of the ponies that was injured from the dog 4 years ago. She is colicing and the vet doesn't know why and suggested taking her to the hospital. I cannot take her to the hospital as I truely cannot afford it. This was sudden and she did have some damage from when she coliced from the dog 4 years ago.

Oh, I don't really have anyone to talk to. I am praying that whatever is making her sick will resolve. I am having a hard time with this because I am the kind of person who does what is right for the animal. I don't have a diagnosis telling me what is wrong other than she is colicing (which means digestive track pain anywhere from stomach all the way out).

I don't know if she is going to get worse or better, the waiting is very hard, the not knowing is very hard.

This was not something I had expected, I have been giving her special care and she was doing fine and then this.

This brings me back to the chaos that presented me with PTSD.

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