(((((((((((((((((Evangelista))))))))))))))))))
Sounds horrible hon! I went through something too where , like Sky said, I was able to get a hold of some newspaper articles. But again like Sky said you should not read them alone because it can be very intense. I am glad too hear that you are able to have some people who are helping you to get answers. Just go slow and please continue to write on here when you need too.
HUGS
Cher