I barely survived Turkey Day so much family came in I was home from school and I'm just dreading Christmas. Once again family is coming in and I'll be home for break and that's a whole other anxiety being home period for a month. I don't know if I can do it, being policed watched over side comments like damn it I'm more than my eating disorder literally maybe one of my family members out of like 30 of us that came in asked me about my personal life, a normal conversation "how's school? What have you been up to lately?" the things that I can answer.

I just hate that my mother tries to ride in on her white horse and save the day and just openly talks about my problems to everyone not just family I need a plan I need help I need to set some boundaries or I'm gunna end up how I was on Thanksgiving completely miserable and later binging/purging from all the anxiety and choas complete non-sense.

I've been with my family on holidays before and managed to make it thru somehow but this year has been particularly difficult in so many ways that I just can't express right now. What have any of you done around the holidays should I tell my mother how I feel although she tends not to listen to what I have to say how do I set boundaries should I devise a plan I'm just completely dreading the upcoming few weeks