You're very right, Songbird. In fact, one of the things T told me shula spoke about was how nobody listened to her. That was certainly a very strong thing when I was growing up - and then I thought I had found someone who would listen and he took advantage. So I think you are right that shula is seeing this as a time she can speak. Part of my fear is from feeling out of control. Part is a deep sense that it is wrong for me to be able to express myself. Part is that I have a limited number of sessions with the psychologist and I know I need to make good use of them.
She still wants to say more and I don't know what I am going to do next week. I want to give her my voice but...