Yeah, I thought I had it all figured out. I know their names, likes and triggers. I have so many to start with already. Oh great someone new. We are now know of 30 alters. How many can there really be?

I know that I'll always be in T. I learned that a few years ago. There are so many alters and so many ppl who abused us. Know the names of 5 ppl who s*****ly abused us. Then the physical abuse and emotional abuse and then a r*pe as a teen. I honestly don't know how I've made it this far.

Breathing, my head is spinning in a thousand different directions. Just feeling just so utterly alone right now.

Monty