Ok, so my father and i got into an argument tonight about the money. I decided to go to my boyfriends. When i was there though, i thought that I should call home to make sure my mother was handling things ok, because i thought my dad had already gone to work. Well, he didn't. So i told him that i would just give him the money. And he told me that he realizes that i can't trust him and he even admited that he knows it's his fault and that i may never trust him. Ok, well here's the thing, it's my father and even though i have given up a long time ago about even caring about him, there is still a tiny little strand of me that wants to have a father i can talk to. Now i understand that no outsider will really know the situtation like i do, but i was wondering if someone could give me advice on where to even begin. Just talking to him about my day sounds nice, but it scares me to actually do it. It's like the words just stop comming out of my mouth. When i'm talking to my mother and he comes into hearing distance i just stop talking. Ok, well I actually have told him about little pieces of my day recently, but I don't feel any connection with him. Ok, so I'm not going for the whole connection thing right away, i'm just going for a father i can talk to. Ok, so does anyone have any suggestions on how to patch up a relationship that has been non-existent for 20 years? Even a silly suggestion is better than nothing right now. My time is limited and i can't think. I just am too close to the situtation, but i do want to make things better. (Ok, well i really want to know that i can trust him, but that'll take time)