No he definately was not a new client and in fact he doesn't even work so finding a different time slot for him would have worked better. My t decided to see him because for some messed up reason he was in the computer and I was not. He took me back to talk to me because the other person wasn't there yet so I was talking to him and told him that it was my appointment so that's why I wasn't going to leave. I didn't make a seen in the waiting room just in his office. I left him a message and told him what I did with the putty and said I was sorry for throwing it in the garbage.

My t knew that this would upset me way more than the other client because he doesn't have the attachment to t like I do. I know this because I am friends with his ex-girlfriend. He knows that it is almost unbearable for me to wait for him to come back from vacation. It is a road trip back in time when I would wait staring out the window looking for my parents to come home from the bar. I can't even explain the physical and emotional things I feel in my body. I know it isn't right but it is like an instant trip back there and I can't seem to change it.