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Old Apr 21, 2006, 04:56 PM
Anonymous29319
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yes. kind of. What we are talking about here is called becoming co-conscious (being aware while the memorys replay)

What I went through to do this is listed in my blog.

The more you focus on your therapist and follow his grounding questions the more you will be able to remain aware.

At first you will float off and he will be left with the memory content of "shula" replaying and thats ok because he can talk to you while those memorys are replaying and find out what the triggers are that make that piece of memory replay and get acted out.

as you practice remaining aware you will get stronger and be able to stay aware for longer and longer times during therapy.

At first it will feel so wierd cause its kind of like tunnel vision of binocculars everything will seem miles away from you. you can see your therapist but also see flashback style what that memory piece contains.

At first your voice will sound strange because the tone and volume is that which is contained in the memory that is replaying, but then each time you get triggered into this same memory piece you will be able to use your present voice instead of the memory voice of you as a child.

You will be able to know what is in that memory and tell your therapist what you are seeing, hearing and so on while that memory is replaying.

Once you remember the content of that memory, when you get triggered that memory no longer gets acted out because it is no longer stored separated from your conscious level. Its now a part of your normal conscious memorys.

Then its just a matter of letting yourself get used to knowing what happened. You may have flashbacks and other PTSD symptoms associated with the "shula" memories for a bit but you will not be dissociating (unaware and acting out) as "shula" anymore.

You will always know that situation contained in the memory was called "Shula" and that memory content that was known as "Shula" will always be there because memorys are stored forever but you will now be able to control yourself and your behavior and how you react to that memory.