thank you. Yes, I'm thinking of checking out if there is anything for online addiction. I think he is addicted. But today he was here. Actually here. For a short time. His business requires being online, which is a problem. It is not successful now. But it could easily be. That's the whole starcraft thing. He has connections and training to be a pro-streamer. But it will take a year of training. But if he succeeds then he could make far more money than I ever can.

He was saying he is scared when the baby comes because he needs to train 12+ hours a day (like now) but when I go back to work, he will have the baby here. We can't afford daycare. (Part of the reason he stays home. His job prospects are McDonalds type jobs, which are not enough to cover the daycare we would need.) Anyway, he was saying also he would be making more than me, so I could stay home instead of work. Work is very hard for me but I don't qualify to be disabled at this time. (Plus we need my income, which would be more than cut in half if I was put on disability.)

I know this is true. This was the whole point when he started this whole thing. But, the people... the crazy, crazy people. They are what drive him away. I can tell when he hasn't been talking to them all day. He's a totally different person. Oddly, he was never this way. Never. No one could sway him or change his opinions or values until he met these people. It is like a cult or something. I don't know what they did or how they did it, but he's caught in their web. Luckily, so many of them are selfish and backstabbers, and immature. (Most are college students under 25.) And the swooning groupie girls, I do not trust them.... I trust he won't initiate something, but those girls are ruthless and I would not put it past them to show off physical assets in the attempt to be with someone they consider "a star." That's why I wonder about the mid-life crisis too soon.

But the problem is, I'm bipolar, so it triggers me. And I'm pregnant, which also triggers me.