Unfortunately, I had to drop out of collage. My job was paying for it, and they kicked me out of their program when I had my accident. I would like to go to a shrink but its just not an option. As soon as I lose my job, I will barely be able to afford my place to live, let alone a shrink.

No, the nearest family counseling center is over 2 hours away. Not exactly in easy access. I've tried to look up any local information, but there really seems to be nothing in terms of psychiatric care.

Taking drugs and drinking never really bothered me. All it does for me is throw me into a trip. I get to stop thinking, and stop stressing. I've quit cold turkey several times before, so starting and quitting is never really an issue with me.

Honestly, I can't cope with anything. I just tend to either ignore it, or just press through with it. My parents were very right about what they wanted and what I am. They wanted an athlete and for me to join the military, body build,, hunt, ride motorcycles, like my dad. I am a geek who does administrative logistics with health problems galore, and now a disability. They were pretty much spot on, but that's here nor there really.