I am so depressed. I am not eating or sleeping. My self esteem is completely gone and I don't know what to do. My boyfriend blames everything on me and it hurts so bad because at times, I believe it is my fault. I have never been so hurt in my life. Everyone keeps telling me to cheer up or don't let it get to me, but these thoughts aren't in there heads. I want to get better so bad but I really don't know how. I am seeing a counselor but days after I see her it just gets worst. I can't function at home. All I want to do is lie and my bed. I keep asking myself what is wrong with me. I pray for God to take these feelings away from me but they keep getting worst. I don't know exactly what I am asking from the forum. I guess I just needed to get my feelings out in the open.