Thanks everyone for the kind words. I am taking meds but they really aren't helping. The counselor I go to doesn't prescribe meds. I feel better after I talk to her and get the feelings out but I tried to see her today but she wasn't there. I pray and pray for better days but it seems like it is getting worst. The only reason I still have a job is because I have the best supervisor in the world and she is there for me. I have 3 kids at home and I can't even give them my all because of what I am going through. I have had depression before but it has never been this bad.