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Originally Posted by Morgana
'Cause I'm starting to think that depression is like the friend that moves into your basement, and you sort of forget they're there except when they take your food or watch TV all night, or track mud in, and all of a sudden, it's been two years, and they're still there. 
Well, I've been feeling depressed since I was 7. I'm 23 now. Yeah, it gets better sometimes. But then I end up feeling awful again. I took the depression screening quiz for the first time in 2006 and got 43. Took it yesterday and got 71. Er...  I've been diagnosed with depression for...4 years now? I think? Maybe 5 years already, I don't know. I've been in therapy 4 times, too, but none of it has ever really helped. Never been on medication. Everyone tends to focus on my anxiety and PTSD problems, and just...ignores the depressive feelings entirely, unless I admit to having self-injurious or suicidal thoughts, upon which I'm treated like I'm about to throw myself off the edge of the world.  (Which is very annoying because I know when I'm in actual danger of harming myself, and when I just have the feelings. Someone freaking out about it...is really aggravating.)
Just...wish it would ever actually go away for good. My mood does lift, it's not all a miasma of despair. But I always crash back down, and I'm really tired of it.  No matter what I do. |
You say you've been to therapy around 4 times and i'm not sure if you're taking any anti-depressants or not...
In my experience when I became extremely depressed a couple years ago I went to see a therapist weekly and was taking anti-depressants... after a few months I started feeling much MUCH better and I slowly weened myself off of my anti-depressants (with doctors permission). I made small changes in my life like exercising and eating better and trying to remain positive about most things... it's a lot of work but you truly can feel better if you give it all you got.
I hope you get to feeling better soon.
