So anyway, my T said she's call today so we could reconnect and make an appt. She never called. This is so conflicting and hard for me.'

So, I went in today to find out I am in a Dual diagnosis group. The reason is because I also smoke pot daily. I have no problem with the group, but it's a lot of maybe 18-30 year olds. I am 42. They are in there for heroin, opiates, you name it.

One of the things is that they are horribly boring. Another thing is I've smoked all my life and I have no problem with it. Its not causeing any problems in my life. I do understand that to totally heal, I need to address this problem. My main problem is my depression. I got it coming from everywhere and I really dont have enough motivation to tackle my weed problem right now. Plus the first thing they talk about in group is how weed is the worst drug in the world. Talk about cramping my style.

I need relief from my depression. I told the nurse this morning when I saw her. She said they could see about transfering me to an all mental health group. I will mention this when I get there tomorrow. On the upside, I did get to paint a little and do a puzzle.

Thanks for all your support,
Amy