I didnt explain this very well, but we had a long talk. She will refer me if i want, but once we talked, T and i agree on goals. I think she worded it badly when she said forget the trauma. I told her i'll always remember, and i was insulted she suggested i could or should forget. I hope to be able to remember someday without freaking out and nightmares, etc. She said that was what she meant. It's difficult because we have only met 4 times and we don' t know each other. After our last meeting, i really believe we can be ok and
work together. (((Perna))) i'm so glad you weren't in your car! That was the universe keeping you in one piece. Thank you everyone for all your kind words too. You'll never be able to fathom how much you all mean to me.