Thanks for your replies.

Wheeler: I am constantly worried that my T will dump me - this week we talked about some images that I have in my head at times and T let me talk for a while and then asked how I felt talking about it and I said I felt nothing - T then said we should come away from it and focus on something else - T said maybe the concern wasn't about me but about his stuff. So now I wonder whether my stuff is too much for him and I am worried that he is seeing me purely because it may not be ethical for him to dump me at the moment - but in fact that would be his prefence.

Cantexplain: I think that is it for me - the thought of having to start again with a new person is daunting and how would I know I would not get to this place again. I do feel more trusting of my T, but there is something there that always gets in the way.

Sannah: I have difficulty understanding what intimacy is, my T has talked about intimacy in the past, but for me it just equates to sex. From what T explained, I am assuming that is not what you mean here - but rather just feeling close? And yes that does scare me, but probably because of exactly my skewed view of intimacy - physically I trust my T totally, but my mind mixes things up and I feel I need to keep my distance. I will think about this some more though, so thank-you for this thought.

Just Some Girl: Yes I think this would be the biggest con for me, but the confident bit of me, says it would be fine and a great way to test whether I have made progress with my T. But then if I have made progress, what would be the point of changing and if I haven't made progress how do I know that is down to T or me.

I wonder whether at some point if the relationship really isn't working with T, I will absolutely know it and not be in this place of deliberation.

Thanks for your views - Soup