I've been going to my T for about 6 months now, complete my rehab program next week & have been sober 2 months. When I first went in to see the T, it was for general rage/anger, self-injury & uncontrolled emotional responses. I still have the anger issues (!!!) and had to miss 2 days of work last week due to my outbursts at the office. I was so afraid that I'd snap again & get myself fired...

Anyway, last met w/T on Monday & she wants me to see a psychiatrist to explore the possibilities of psych meds now that I'm off alcohol & drugs. I'm open to that... but I haven't been completely honest w/my T about my feelings/issues. Alcoholic rage & anger took center stage, so I didn't get a chance to talk about the other things yet.

I feel I really need to open up about these other things in order to get the right meds. I'm 36 & I live in a world of my own (when I get a chance to be away from other people) w/my "imaginary friend" (who is actually deceased). I love this friend & look forward to talking with him whenever I can. This is a pasttime I have enjoyed for most of my life (adult & childhood). Yes, he talks back and in his own voice, but his voice usually originates in my head (but sometimes outside my head) and also in vivid dreams.

I love being "alone" and can only tolerate being around people for short periods of time. I also have other obsessions about certain numbers, astrology, syncronicities & reincarnation. I can smell germs when someone near me has a cold coming on. I get definite "vibes" from other people that determine whether or not I will respond to them.

I have never told another living soul these things about myself & I'm so terrified T will have me locked up. Should I be honest w/T or let it ride since it doesn't hurt anyone?

Help?!