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Originally Posted by kaliope
I can certainly relate. I really struggle with anxiety. i am confused by your statement that you tried the meds ten years ago and it made you have no anxiety. which made you quit your job with no back up plan. are you saying you need the anxiety to function? That would make sense too as a certain level of anxiety helps with the need to control, but the level your describing is certainly impairing your level of functioning, or could if you cant keep the panic attacks at bay. perhaps a mild antianxiety that just takes the edge off would work? buspar is good, and nonaddicting. my pdoc has me on clonodine which is a blood pressure med, just takes the edge off, but isnt an antianxiety. I would definately talk to a doc about your options.
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What I mean is I seemed to have no worries on fluoxitine and massive depression. It made me not worry if I called in to work. I basically stopped caring about thing things that are important. And yes I think I need anxiety to function. Just not the level that I have. I really did well on alprazolam but they said that was addictive and stopped prescribing it. I seem to go maybe a month or two without panic attacks and then I have a bunch of them in a row. I am not sure if they are only panic attacks. I almost feel psychotic. I am so freaked out and paranoid that I can't keep it hidden. I start panicking to my superiors about things that are not important in the scheme of things. I speak fast and I start going 90 miles an hour. I sometimes cry and feel like I'm not in reality. Sometimes it doesn't subside for the entire day. The last one I had was brought on by call monitoring. I got some negative feedback on a call I had and I took it really hard. As a reflection of me. All of a sudden i started thinking insanely. That I might lose my job, that they all hated me, they think I'm a bad employee etc. I basically hyperventilated, was almost crying. I then obsessively started emailing the person doing the call monitoring on almost every call to see if I did ok on it. I mean this type of behavior is insane. It has never lost me a job but I fear it will or will keep me from succeeding.