Warning trigger SA account((((Peridot))))there are no words to say how sorry i am for what you endured. I am glad that ypu are put of that situation now. Its a miracle you survived.

i too struggle because i look like my mom too. Your case is a little more severe, i dont have to come my hair in the dark, but i hate what i see. My mom did some very similar things. Im also 38. But she was ill. When i was littler she had some times out of her illness, she could be kind then. But she could be kind one moment, and try to kill us the next. I hate her and love her at the same time and really grossed out i had sex with her. She raped me, then continued to have that type of
relationship with me until my sister was able to come get me to live with her when i was 14.